While I can’t get specific in this post, I guess I still can write about what’s bugging me without REALLY writing about it.
I made some recent decisions that have affected someone I care about. For that, I’m sorry. You know who you are. But I hope you know that these decisions have nothing to do with our friendship. Sometimes we just have to move on. I know what I did was right for me. I know as my friend YOU understand that, even if those around you don’t.
You know how someone tells you something but you REALLY know how they feel and that they’re keeping it from you? I’ve gotten that SO many times in my life. I’ve been loyal to people only to be crapped on once I decide to do what’s right for ME. I have been fortunate, too, that I have had people in my life that have been nothing but encouraging, supportive, and THERE for me. Those are the people I try to keep in my life. Even if they’re 3000 miles away, they know that I’m here for them if they need me and vice versa. They still cheer me on from afar and I them. I don’t forget them. Maybe we only talk every few months, but it’s like we just pick up where we left off. Finding those people is rare. I feel sometimes as if I’m swimming through a sea of sharks. But then, I find a treasure chest. A gem, of sorts. And that one stays with me.
Still, I have to just shake my head when I attempt to do something right for me and someone doesn’t approve. Do you have to point fingers? Maybe just accept the fact that it’s me trying to improve, to grow. And be fine with that.
I wish all people could be like that, but they’re not. We just have to be sure we are smart enough to be able to see them for who they are. If they pull the wool over our eyes, then hopefully we can learn quickly and swim on. On to find another gem...