So it’s a blogging dry spell. Because I can’t show you what I’m working on right now: my next book for Abrams. It’s difficult for me to not show SOMETHING because I like to inspire you if I can. But I can’t! It’s difficult and frustrating.
I don’t want to sound like that author/artist who complains because she’s doubting herself but I’m struggling. I know, I’m SO lucky to be publishing a fourth book, no less publishing AT ALL. I DO feel SO fortunate. I’ve taken hold of opportunities when they seemed to appear, and also pushed for them when they didn’t. Yet I’ve had my share of failures and rejections, too. That’s what needs to happen in order to succeed.
In the midst of all this goodness, I’m struggling right now because I worry about:
1. Making my deadlines
2. Living up to others’ expectations
3. Living up to my own expectations
And I think number 3 is where I get in trouble the most. I tend to judge my work so harshly when it’s my own books. I don’t marry myself to book design for other clients. I keep my emotions out of that, for the most part. If a client wants to reasonably change something I’ve done, I say have at it.
BUT when the project is my own book where I’m writing it, illustrating it, and designing it, well...I get a bit hard on myself. We always judge ourselves more harshly, don’t we? Why do we do that? Our expectations for ourselves are always so much higher. And when you work at home, pounding away by yourself on an upcoming deadline, it can get a little scary.
Anyway, I’m babbling. Just wanted to touch base with you and let you know I’m still alive, just buried. And overthinking.
Have a great day!