It all started with a painting:
I just wanted to spray and play on a canvas pinned to my wall. That’s all I wanted to do. I continued:
Maybe I should’ve stopped there. But I didn’t.
I should have quit while I was ahead...but I didn’t. The next day, I attempted something else:
But a couple days later, it just wasn’t feeling right. So I did this:
Bye, bye, bunny. But what now? I’m not sure, but it’s much more than about this one canvas. I’m feeling out of sorts. Today I didn’t feel so good so I just napped a good portion of the day. A weird headache and an odd feeling of uneasiness and uncertainty has been plaguing me. I don’t know what’s next in my art. I feel like I’m at a crossroads. I want to evolve, I want to push ahead, but I’m stumbling and fumbling. It may be that I’m also wrapping up my next doodle book. An end. A finish.
I feel stale and I don’t like it. But I definitely want to change my direction a little. So I’m going to be kind to myself. I’m going to give it some time. Maybe step back. Allow myself some time off and then some experimentation. I need this. I need to grow. Don’t we all?